41. I Cant Think of a Title

So right now for some weird reason I am REALLY pissed! I have NO reason to be pissed, in fact I just got home from spending a few hours with friends. We played Magic tonight, and had a great time. When I got home I felt very crowded and the need to scream, in fact I feel that way right now. I think however if I scream it will upset Terra who is sitting right next to me.

Normally I would never post something like this, but I am pretty sure no one in my family actually reads my blog. They are all to “busy” doing other stuff to really give care about what is going on in my life. So I am pretty sure that anything I post here will not be read by anyone in my family.

I am out here separated from my family. Here is the thing that really upsets me about this…They dont seem to care that I am gone. Its not a surprise really. When I was on my mission in CA the ONLY member of my family who write me on a regular basis was my Dad. Everyone else had every excuse under the sun why they could find the time to write me. But guess what when my brother was on his mission he got SO MANY LETTERS he had to throw them out because he didn’t have the room to carry them anymore.

Now once again I am on the west coast separated from family and I am being ignored. On my birthday I got two phone calls from people in my family. Everyone else forgot. The most recent exploit is with my sister. We have asked over and over again for pictures of their family. Last week Terra and I made a light comment on how we wanted to see more pictures on my sisters blog. We received a VERY rude and negative response. this escalated into a fight where my sister, who wasn’t listening, thought I was upset that she hadn’t posted pictures on her blog. She was wrong! Its her blog she can post when she wants. What I was upset about was her rude comments. Her emails, multiple phone calls, and text messages were all geared toward this thought process of her thinking this whole thing was about the pictures. And with each email, phone call or text her comments got more and more rude, which was making me more and more upset, that being what I was upset about in the first place, and not being upset about the pictures.

NOTE: I would like pictures of my family especially since I am so far from home. I get so little vacation at this job and so seeing pictures helps with that separation. However again that was not what my irritation was over. My irritation was over her rude comments.

So now knowing all of this Terra just told me that Jessica sent her a couple emails filled with pictures of Alice her daughter, and my niece. She didn’t send me anything! Nothing, nadda, zippo! How hard is it to add an email address to the To: line? I am so tired of being left out a forgotten by my family! Time after time I am left out, and at this point it really has gone BEYOND hurting my feelings! AT this point I am almost ready to say screw it and just stop calling them, emailing them, ANYTHING! I doubt they would notice. They are SOOOOOOOOOO “busy” with other things in their life that I seem to ALWAYS take a back seat!

I dont really have a good ending or wrap up for this blog post so I am just going to say to all those of you who stuck through and read this little rant to the end, Thank You for giving me the oppertunity to vent. I appreciate it!

3 thoughts on “41. I Cant Think of a Title

  1. Jason, I feel your pain… and my family lives close.. I have found that if I lower my expectations of my family to 0, I am a happier person.
    I am sorry for your pain.

  2. *hug*
    You are a kind and giving person, Jason Heilpern. I think your family is missing out on the wonderful person you have become, but to be fair, they have had little opportunity to meet the new and improved you. Hurt feelings take time to get over, and maybe there are hurt feelings on both sides.
    However, I can offer you this ray of sunshine on what must have been a very hard night for you. Terra was right there next to you. You have a family Jason, and next time things get you down, look at Terra and know you’re loved.
    Then you can call your second family (Olympia Roleplayers) who will be happy to sit through another incredibly unfair game of Conquest just to cheer you up!

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