Hurricane Ian
One of the strangest things about an oncoming hurricane is the calm before the storm. Hurricane Ian is expected to make landfall sometime in the next 24 hours, and if you were to step outside and drop a pin, you'd hear it. There is no wind, not a single bird singing, nothing. Just absolute silence.
It won't be that way long, because, as I mentioned, we have a hurricane headed right for us. Thankfully we do not live on the western side of Florida which will take the brunt of the storm and bring the category of Hurricane Ian down from a 4 to a 1 by the time it hits Orlando.
Stores were wiped out of all the normal things, bread, water, milk...which I always thought was an odd thing to buy before a storm. If the power goes out what are you going to do with all that milk?
Leslie and I are as prepared as we can be. We have stocked up on snacks, drinks, ice for the cooler, and more. Our yard items have been stowed and put away, and now we just wait. We have a list of movies we plan to watch, and when the power goes out, because it will, we both have lots of books to read.
So until next time please enjoy this image I took with my Holy Stone 700D Drone 500ft above Orlando.
Also just a reminder that I have added a store to my website where you can buy prints. Currently I have 4 photos listed, and plan to add more in the coming weeks. I also plan to be adding some Lightroom Presets there soon as well, and some courses on how to take better photos in the future, so stay tuned.
Where Have I Been
You have probably noticed a lack of posts over the last two weeks and wondered...Where have I been? Let's be honest you probably did not think that, and truth be told we all have lives to live and me not posting probably didn't even cross your mind. That's ok.
But I have been absent the last two weeks and probably will continue to be absent for at least another week. In the last two weeks I have traveled to Great Falls Montana, San Fransico CA, Los Angeles CA, Tempe AZ, and a few more cities in and around those areas. This coming week I will be traveling to Colorado, Oregon, California (again), and Hawaii.
The last two weeks have been an adventure, to say the least, and I have had my camera in hand at every opportunity, taking photos of my travels.
Some of these images have garnered an emotional reaction on my Instagram. So much so that I ordered a batch of postcards to be sent out to those interested. The postcard will feature one of the images above, but I am not telling which one. Those who want a postcard will just have to wait by the mailbox and be surprised.
I promise to update you on all my travels and such in the future, but for now, enjoy these images and I will see you next I get a chance.
Till then have a great day and make good art.
Why We Love Old Things
A few years ago my mother gifted all of her children with a flash drive of all our old family photos. Over the years I have had a bitter-sweet relationship with those photos. Sometimes I can look at them and it brings back forgotten happy memories, but more often than naught it brings back reminders of just how unhappy I was during a certain time and I was trying desperately to mask. Despite all of this I keep going back, keep looking at these images, and keep remembering. Why? Because I have a theory on why we love old things.
When you were a kid did you ever like something? Could have been a band, a movie, or maybe even a book...then one day you shared that like with a group of "friends" and they made fun of you for liking that thing. Has that ever happened to you? What happened after that happened? Did you go on liking that thing, but in secret? Did you put the movie, CD, or book into a box and hide it away in some dark closet? Did you stop wearing that band's t-shirt? Did you stop playing D&D?
Maybe none of these things happened...Maybe you were just interested in a subject and wanted to learn more about it, but never did because it was perceived as unpopular or uncool to participate in such things. So you didn't...right?
This kind of thing happened A LOT to a lot of kids. From the moment I turned 8 years old my father's favorite quote, that he recited to me over and over was "When I was a child I thought as a child and acted as a child, but when I became a man I put away childish things." So as I grew up I always felt guilty for liking certain things...bands, comics, POGs, cartoons, movies, etc...because I was constantly told either by family members or friends that I shouldn't like those things. So even though I wanted to...I didn't.
At some point in my mid 20's, I actually convinced myself to throw away a large collection of movies, music, and comics that I had accumulated over the years because I thought it was time for me to be an adult and "put away childish things". I hate that I ever felt that way about myself and my interests because I lost out on so many years that I could have enjoyed those things.
Why do we love old things? Because we were never allowed to enjoy them safely when we were younger, and now that we are older, we have come to understand that people's opinions of us matter less, that our time is short here on earth, and we gave ourselves permission to like and participate in whatever we want without judgment from ourselves.
We can play D&D without having to find excuses for why we play D&D, and just enjoy the company of good friends and a good story game. We can read comics for no other reason than because we like the artwork and enjoy the plot. You can watch a cartoon or TV show without guilt because the characters make you feel comfortable and safe.
See the whole idea of "when I became a man I put away childish things" is wrong. I think The Doctor said it best when he said "There's no point being grown-up if you can't be childish sometimes.."
So go like what you like. If someone doesn't like it ignore them. It is your life, not theirs. If they want to live their life without, let them! Just because they do it doesn't mean you have to. So go out and enjoy all the things you were not able to enjoy when you were a child.
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How Photographs Are Made
Have you ever wondered how photographs are made? I am not talking about how they are developed, albeit that is a fascinating subject. I am talking about how photographers create photographs.
Artists of all kinds have this incredible ability to see something in their minds. An image is known only to them, and through their own talent, creativity, dedication, and hard work turn that simple mental image into reality.
When I first started learning the art of photography I started out by reading a TON of books, combing through photo collections, and I had an ungodly amount of Pinterest idea boards. Every once in a while I would pick out an image I really liked and go try to recreate that image. (9 times out of 10 my 1st, 2nd, and even 3rd attempt would go terribly awry. The photos would look NOTHING like the image I had drawn inspiration from. But every single time I tried the photo would get a little bit better, and I would learn a little bit more.
Eventually, I stopped looking at images on Pinterest, bc my own mind was coming up with great ideas all on its own. The process was the same though...try...fail..try again...learn. We get better through failure, and if there is one thing I am actually good at it's failing up.
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Is Photography Hard
Have you ever wondered why we don't see more great artists anymore? What happened to the genius that was Einstein, Mozart, and Picasso? I am always amazed at how naive people chose to be because most people when they see a great artist, athlete, scholar, or musician just naturally assume they were born to that privilege. "It's a natural gift" they might say. Rarely will these people ever think about what it took for that person to achieve the success they see today. Why? I honestly don't know. Maybe they don't want to compare their own lives to the life of someone who was willing to do whatever was required for what they wanted. Maybe they are afraid that if they look into that void all they will see if their own mediocrity staring back at them. Who knows?
When I think of great people I have looked up to I often like to remember the story of Peter Dinklage and his first apartment. Before he was Tyrion Lannister he lived in a run-down apartment in NYC. No heat, AC, or stove to cook food. His landlord brandished a knife at him and his roommates several times and refused to fix anything. Can you imagine that? Can you imagine that as your home? Can you imagine sleeping there? Would you feel safe?
I can't speak for Peter, but I have heard several interviews he gave where he talks about this time in his life, and all I can say is I see the sadness in his eyes. A haunting memory when he thinks back on that time. Was it worth it? Only Peter can answer that.
But that really is the question, isn't it? When someone aspires to be great at something a sacrifice or two will have to be made. How many people are even willing to consider paying that sacrifice?
For me when it came to learning the art of photography, one of the hardest sacrifices I ever had to pay, was sucking at something. Growing up I had always had a natural talent for so many things. Music, theater, public speaking, and more. I never really had to apply myself to anything because everything came so quickly to me. I had no need to aspire for greatness because I was living on the high end of mediocrity. I was better at most things than most people and that was ok for me. Then...I picked up a camera.
I originally started photography to have something in common with my now ex-wife. She had several Nikon cameras and she allowed me the opportunity to shoot with one of her backups. The first week I started taking pictures I almost quit right then and there. My pictures were TERRIBLE! The composition was off, the lighting was either over or under-exposed, I had no idea what all the buttons did, and my photos looked nothing like the photos I had saved in a Pinterest folder for inspiration. The bottom line was I was a beginner, and as such had no knowledge, experience, or history to draw from. In short, I sucked!
See, now this is the part in the story where most people quit. I'm not naturally good at something? Oh well, not for me. So they give up. They put away anything that reminds them of their abject failure and move on to something where they can be a little bit better than everyone else.
The story I remember was in 2004 in CA. I was eating dinner at a friend's home and his father, who was in his 60s, was bragging over dinner to me about how when he was my age he had done so much more stuff than I had. His tone was very condescending and I could tell he was VERY proud of himself. So I asked, "So what have you accomplished since then?" He...was...furious! I won't go into details, but I was thrown out of the house and was never allowed to return...All because I asked one simple question.
So to sum a few things up...Is learning photography hard? Yes! I have been shooting for 10 years. I have read books, watched YouTube Videos, listened to podcasts, gone to workshops, practiced, failed, and did it all over again. Despite all of that work, study and effort I would describe myself as knowing maybe 1% of 1% of all there is to know and learn about photography. Is it worth it?
For me...The answer always comes to me when I work very hard on a photo and I get the exact image I was hoping for. The answer...for me...is always a resounding YES!
So I encourage you to go out, try something new, and be brave enough to suck at something. You can do it! Thanks for stopping by. I would love to hear what you think about all this. Feel free to leave a comment or reach out on Instagram, Twitter, Patreon, or Vero.
I'm Not Feeling Well
I'm so sorry friends but I'm not feeling well today, so I probably won't be posting a full post.
Getting sick when you are a self employed freelance photographer is an interesting experience. You almost feel guilty for taking time off to heal and rest. As human beings I wish we could lived in a world where it was OK to take the rest we need when we need it.
Stressing about how you're going to make money or where you're going to find work doesn't help your body while it's fighting the flu.
Alas, that is not the world we live in. We live in a world controlled by bills, political groups, religious organizations, and more. So for now... I'm going to try and get some rest. Till tomorrow... Enjoy these images I took.
What Photographers See
Photographers are a very interesting breed of person. Their passion is to see and photograph things that most people take for granted. Their talent is to find beauty in the mundane. A photographer sees what sometimes no one else can, what no one else wants to admit, what no one else believes. What does a photographer see? Art.
Yesterday I talked about an event that took place here in Orlando FL at SelfieWRLD. Models and photographers from all over the state gather to network, meet, and of course, create. While I was working through the various scenes and backdrops I heard models say over and over...
"I'm not very pretty." "Can you hide (insert perceived flaw)?" "I don't think I am very good."
Photographers hear these and various related phrases all the time from people they work with, and I am going to tell you something that you should remember the next time you work with a photographer...They will never believe you!
Whatever flaw you see in yourself, there is a VERY good chance that YOU are the ONLY person who sees it. We are our biggest naysayers, but despite all that, a photographer's job is to see beyond your insecurities and worries. What a photographer sees is your truest potential. Your best self. The real you.
It is through this gift that photographers are able to bring out powerful emotions in a single image. They are able to capture what's really there instead of what someone fears are there. Because they can see what others can't and with a photograph, show the world what they see.
When I work with different models I sometimes catch a glimpse of who or what that person is. It honestly depends on the situation and the person as to how this bit of inspiration occurs, but it does happen, and it did happen while working the event at SelfieWRLD.
I was walking through the event and I stumbled upon Shaun. He was working with a few other photographers, but something stopped me and made me take note of him. He had a presence or an aura about him and I wanted to take his photograph.
When it came time for my turn to work with Shaun I asked him a simple question. I asked him to close his eye and think about the man he wanted to be in 5 years. I told him I would count to 3 and when I said 3 I wanted him to open his eyes and make his future self proud. I think he understood the assignment.
As I was editing this image the words of Muhammad Ali came to mind.
I’m a show you how great I am!
If only those in front of our cameras could see what we photographers can. If they could there would be more worldwide belief in one's self, and more people would go out and show themselves just how great they can be!
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SelfieWRLD Orlando
Last night I had the opportunity to attend a photographer & model meetup at SelfieWRLD Orlando. The event was sponsored by Pexels which I had not heard of until last night.
Now I am going to be honest, while I had been looking forward to this event all week in the moments leading up to the event I was filled with anxiety. Even driving to the event I contemplated turning around 5 or 6 times. But I got dressed up, left the house, and was going to be social god damn it! And I am glad I went. Not only was SelfieWRLD Orlando an amazing place I got to meet some very cool photographers and models!
I am actually surprised more locations and businesses like SelfieWRLD Orlando don't exist, and those that do exist have only started gaining traction in the last 2-3 years, which is weird considering the last 2-3 years. SelfieWRLD Orlando is filled with individual booths, each booth having a different theme. It's actually a great set up and I certainly will be going back for some fun shoots in the future.
Here are a few of my shots from last night. I have so many photos taken that I need to go through and edit, so make sure you are following my Instagram, Patreon, Twitter, and Vero to see all of them.
Also, don't forget that my first newsletter comes out on Monday and we will be talking about 3 ways to take better photos on your phone.
Till next time keep taking great shots!
Mental Health Exercises For Photographers
Yesterday I talked about how photography helped me with my own personal mental health. Today I would like to talk about specific ideas and exercises one might do, as a photographer, to improve their own mental health. Now, before we get started let me be clear, these are just suggestions, not law. The difference between an idea and law is that ideas are moldable. They can be changed, evolved, improved upon, and made better. So I encourage all of you reading to take my ideas and make them your own. I would even love to hear about how you have improved on these ideas on my Patreon, Twitter, Instagram, or Vero. So without further ado here are some mental health exercises for photographers.
Go On A Photo Walk-About
The first time I ever heard the term walk-about was watching the movie, Crocodile Dundee. The main character explained that it was a time to just walk around and think. No real direction or destination. You just kind of go where your feet take you. Going on a photography walk-about is not much different. You just pick a place and walk, camera in hand, and take pictures as you go. Some of my favorite walkabouts were in Cleaveland OH while there on a work trip, a local nature trail here in Orlando, and weirdly enough Disneyland. Some of my best photos ever taken have come from walkabouts, and I always feel a little better afterward both mentally and physically.
Work Through You Emotions With Self Portraits
In 2019 I decided to start taking self-portraits. I did this because I did not have a lot of good photos of myself, and I wanted some, and there were things I wanted to express that I thought I could through self-portrait photography. After I had created my first 5 or 6 self-portraits a friend told me something that I will never forget. She said that while the photos were good they lacked depth, emotion, and vulnerability, and that is what she wanted to see. So I sat down and wrote out some emotions that I have always struggled with. Emotions that I often tried to hide, but occasionally bubbled up to the surface in unhealthy ways, and decide to take a photo of those emotions. The one that really stuck with me was the photos I took of anger. Taking the photo and talking on Instagram about how anger had affected my life in the past brought a great deal of peace and closure to me. It helped me to see things about myself I had not seen before and helped me gain even greater control, in a healthy way, over my emotions.
Learn To See Art In The Ordinary and Mundane
There is this idea that we only see a small percentage of the world around us. We are bombarded by so many things that our brains can only process so much, otherwise, we would get overwhelmed and die. Because of that filter, we have on the world we often overlook or miss small things that carry great beauty. A few months ago I started taking the time to find those small items that we often overlook and turn them into beautiful works of art with nothing more than my camera and a bit of light editing. My favorite image that I have created in this endeavor so far is the one below. My wife had been doing some arts and crafts earlier and had left some colored pencils on our coffee table. I gathered up the pencils and put them inside a shot glass so they would all be held together. Using a chair I took a photo of them from overhead and this image turned into one of my most liked photos on any social media platform I am currently on. Art...made from the most simple object...a pencil.
I hope you enjoyed these mental health exercises for photographers. These are a few ideas I employ to help my mental health and I have found them helpful. What are some ways that you have used photography for your mental health? I'd love to hear! In the meantime make sure you are signed up for my newsletter where I share things that are newsletter exclusive. For example this week I will be sharing 3 great tips to take great photos with your phone!
Till next time - Keep taking great photos.
Can Photography Help Mental Health
Can Photography Help Mental Health
I always thought it a weird joke the universe was playing on me when I think back on the worst day of my life. It was April 1, 2009 (April Fools Day), and I was planning to kill myself.
I have struggled with mental health most of my life. Growing up I never really felt safe. School was honestly a form of cruel and unusual torture as I was plagued by both students and teachers for most of my grade school and middle school career. And while some people had the blessing of being able to go home and find peace I was not graced with that option. Home was a place of violent emotional outbursts, unrealistic expectations, dishonesty, and religious brainwashing. So when I tell you I grew up in survival mode you can at least have a vague understanding.
When someone grows up in survival mode it's extremely difficult for them to be present in the moment. Their brains are operating at 110% all the time analyzing every interaction, motion, word, and phrase. Looking for dangers, and planning out how they will react when the inevitable danger appears. It is an exhausting way to live, and one of the most difficult trauma responses to unlearn.
I carried much of this flight or fight hyper-vigilance into adulthood and I will be honest it ruined a lot of relationships, friendships, and opportunities. So when my world came crashing down around me on April 1, 2009 I thought I was done. I was tired, exhausted, and just didn't see a way out. More importantly, I just didn't want to live like that anymore. So I pulled out my gun, loaded it, and decided to have one last night before the end. I ordered my favorite Chinese food (sesame chicken with fried rice & a coke), cleaned up my apartment (no idea why), and decided to listen to some music. Now at the time, I had a 500-disc CD player, and it was fully loaded with CDs from 500 different artists. I picked up the remote and hit shuffle...what happened next will forever be one of the biggest surprises of my life!
I never reported mine, in fact, I didn't talk about it or tell anyone about it for years. It took me a while to come to grips with what happened. How it happened, and why it happened. Why me?
So there I was, sitting on the couch, eating sesame chicken and sipping on a coke. I had just hit shuffle on my CD player and the VERY FIRST song to come on was a song called Birthday by The Cruxshadows. Now I won't quote the entire song to you, but I will quote the lyrics that hit me like a ton of bricks...
"So look at your life
Who do you want to be before you die?
Look at your life
And what do you want to do?
Look at your life
Who do you want to be before you die?
Look at your life
You haven't got forever"— The Cruxshadows
I heard those lyrics and realized I did not want this to be my last night on earth. I wanted more, and to live a better life. So I unloaded my gun and put it away.
Now I wish I could tell you that the next day I woke up a changed man...I didn't. I wish I could tell you the next day was better...It wasn't...in fact, it was worse. But I knew I wanted to get better, and I had a long journey in front of me. I started going to therapy, reading good books, and making changes in my life. It did not happen all at once. It did not even happen quickly. But eventually, those small changes had a compound effect and my life started to improve.
One of the changes that came into my life a few years later was photography. Social media had introduced me to so many beautiful and stunning images online, and I desperately wanted to create beautiful images myself. I had no idea how, or what I was doing, but photography had sparked something inside me. A fire that was never going to go out. I started taking pictures of anything and everything. Some were good, most were ok, and a few were really bad. But I didn't care. Picking up a camera was a near meditative experience for me.
See when you grow up in survival mode, and eventually, learn to live in survival mode your brain never stops running. It moves at the speed of a supercomputer always looking for danger and popping out ideas of how to deal with that imagined danger. But when I put a camera in my hand my brain stopped looking for dangers. It took a break and for the first time in my entire life, I could be present 100% in the moment. No what ifs. Just me, my camera, and whatever I was shooting.
After living a lifetime in survival mode this reprieve from my brain was/is an experience I have difficulty describing. I remember trying to explain this to my best friend once and saying "Is this how normal people live?! Because if so they have no idea how wonderful their lives are!!"
So can photography help people suffering from mental health? Yes! It has not only given me a haven to help ease my troubled mind but has allowed me the opportunity to express difficult emotions that I could never express before.
I will never understand what happened that night on April 1, 2009. Why out of all those CDs did the machine pick that one CD and that one song? Was it a higher power? If so why me? I will probably never know the answers to those questions, but what I do know is I am grateful I did not pull the trigger that night. I am grateful I eventually discovered photography, and I am grateful I now get to create beautiful images and share them...Just like I wanted to so many years ago.