The Return of Tumblr
It is possible you may have not heard the news, so let me be the first to tell you about the return of Tumblr! There was a time in my life that if someone wanted to get to know me, and I mean really get to know me, I would just tell them to visit my Tumblr account. Spending 10-15 scanning and browsing through my page would tell them more about who I was then a few hours of conversation. Tumblr was the one place where I felt I could be 100% myself. I did not have to worry about what anyone thought about me. I was not posting for followers, likes, or an algorithm. I was just posting for me.
Because Tumblr is largely a site of interpretation using pictures, the written word, and GIFs different people would find different meaning in a single image. Because of that Tumblr actually helped me discover parts of myself that I had buried, hid from, or just plain ignored. I would see an image, or piece of poetry, a GIF set, or something else and I would have to ask myself, why does this speak to me? Why am I feeling something, and what does this feeling even mean? And considering I started using Tumblr at a time of great self discovery and change I consider what Tumblr did for me a blessing.
I also credit Tumblr for helping me develop my personal style when it came to photography. See when I started using Tumblr I had not yet started photography, but I had a deep love of pictures and images. I was drawn to very specific images, and I loved how certain photographers could make everyday objects and items seem extraordinary.
They say if you want to become a writer you need to read great writing. If you want to be a musician you need to listen to great music, and if you want to be a photographer become a student of great images. Well that is exactly what I did. I immersed myself in photographs and image content. I collected and rebloged every beautiful image I came across and all the while I was developing a style, and I didn't even know it.
By the time I picked up my first camera I had a private folder of images I had saved from Tumblr that I wanted to try and recreate, but with my own vision and skills, and I went about doing so with a passion.
I was living in Olympia WA at the time and there was absolutely no shortage of beautiful places to photograph. I wasn't a great photographer, I was brand new, shooting in aperture priority mode with the aperture wide open. I felt like a fraud, and not like a "real" photographer most days, but looking back on some of the images I took I can see the influences Tumblr had on me. I can see how the hours spent scrolling impacted me, and helped mold my sense of style and taste.
They were not the best pictures, none of them were ever edited, and I don't think I was even shooting in RAW at the time, but I look back on these images and I am proud of Adam 11 years ago. He didn't quit, and because of his efforts and the efforts he made for the next 11 years I am the person and photographer I am today.
So thank you to him, and thank you to Tumblr for being that safe space so many years ago. I hope, with the return of Tumblr, that it will once again be that safe space for people to discover themselves, just like I did so many years ago.
Thanks for reading. I hope you enjoyed it. If you have any thoughts leave a comment down below. Also if you would like VIP access to some of my photography, prints, and thoughts don't forget that I have a Patreon you can sign up for. However, if Patreon is not your favorite feel free to follow me on Instagram or Twitter.
Photographers Get No Credit
I have been thinking on this subject a lot recently. Partly because I had an interesting experience with this, but the reality is Photographers get no credit for the images and work we create. I'm not really sure why, to be honest, because so many other creative artists get credit for their work, why not photographers?
Let me explain a little about what happened to be recently, and I want to be clear, some of this is my fault, and I know and recognize that.
A few months ago my wife got a gig working as a Special Effects Makeup Artist on the set of a small independent movie. She was very excited because the film was being produced specifically for an upcoming film festival. A few days before the film was to start shooting a call went out from those in charge of the film asking if anyone knew a photographer who could shoot behind the scenes shots. Of course Leslie suggested me and showed the producers my work, which they were delighted by and asked her to speak to me about being on set. I of course agreed, but was surprised that I was never contacted directly. Like ever.
The first day of filming arrived and I had still not heard a word from anyone on set. I had no idea what the producers, director, or anyone else for that matter was looking for. So I shot an email to the director asking a series of questions.
- What kind of photographs did he want?
- What is the turn around time?
- How many images did he expect?
When he got back to me his answers were all very vague, but the bottom line was he wanted BTS shots, movie poster shots, group photos, etc.
Now this is the part that is my fault. I agreed to what he was asking for and did not have him sign any kind of agreement.
- Lesson Learned - Folks if you are doing work as a photographer always and I mean ALWAYS have your client sign an agreement!
This is why they say experience is the best teacher, but more on that later.
So I showed up, had full and complete access to the set and took some pretty amazing shots including BTS, a very cool movie poster image, and a lot of great images of the cast and crew.
Now one thing I forgot to mention. The film festival that this movie was being shot for had one single requirement, everyone who worked on set could not get paid. So everyone from the Director down to the actors were doing this for free. Which, to be honest, I thought was a very cool challenge.
Making films takes a lot of people with a lot of skills. Skills that are usually expensive. So for a producer and director to convince all these people to come together and offer their services free of charge was a monumental feat in and of itself.
Now, fast forward a few days after filming had wrapped. I had taken over 6000 images on set and had a lot of photos to work though, but despite all of that I had managed to find 20 images that I had pulled and edited right away. One of them was the Movie poster image...
These are some of the images without all the movie information included, because I am not trashing on the movie, its actors, director, or producers. To be honest working with this cast was a pleasure and I would do it again in a heart beat. This is just a personal rant about how little credit Photographers seem to get.
What surprised me, and what I personally have been struggling with since is this...A few days later someone from the film was attending a conference where they were a guest. As a guest they were selling headshots and posters, and I noticed that one of the images from above was included.
Now this is where not having a contract comes in, and why experience is the best teacher. I had never said the cast and crew couldn't use the image. I had no contract requiring the cast and crew to purchase the image and/or rights to the image. But it has bothered me ever since that someone used an image that I created and designed, to make money and profit, without my consent or permission.
But the truth of the matter is this happens all the time! Photographers, who put a great deal of effort into creating, designing, editing, and printing their images get almost no recognition for their work. Think of your favorite movie poster...who took the picture or pictures to make that image? Think of your favorite picture...do you know the photographers name that took it?
What I can't figure out is this, do photographers get little credit because we created this reality? Every year I see photographers offering discounts, package deals, holiday specials, and very very cheap photo sessions. Did we the photographers create a market where our skills and services are just not seen as valuable? And if we did how do we reclaim our worth and change public perception?
I don't really have any answers for that, but it is certainly a question to consider. If you have any thoughts leave a comment down below. Also if you would like VIP access to some of my photography, prints, and thoughts don't forget that I have a Patreon you can sign up for. However, if Patreon is not your favorite feel free to follow me on Instagram or Twitter.
Where Have I Been
You have probably noticed a lack of posts over the last two weeks and wondered...Where have I been? Let's be honest you probably did not think that, and truth be told we all have lives to live and me not posting probably didn't even cross your mind. That's ok.
But I have been absent the last two weeks and probably will continue to be absent for at least another week. In the last two weeks I have traveled to Great Falls Montana, San Fransico CA, Los Angeles CA, Tempe AZ, and a few more cities in and around those areas. This coming week I will be traveling to Colorado, Oregon, California (again), and Hawaii.
The last two weeks have been an adventure, to say the least, and I have had my camera in hand at every opportunity, taking photos of my travels.
Some of these images have garnered an emotional reaction on my Instagram. So much so that I ordered a batch of postcards to be sent out to those interested. The postcard will feature one of the images above, but I am not telling which one. Those who want a postcard will just have to wait by the mailbox and be surprised.
I promise to update you on all my travels and such in the future, but for now, enjoy these images and I will see you next I get a chance.
Till then have a great day and make good art.
What Photographers See
Photographers are a very interesting breed of person. Their passion is to see and photograph things that most people take for granted. Their talent is to find beauty in the mundane. A photographer sees what sometimes no one else can, what no one else wants to admit, what no one else believes. What does a photographer see? Art.
Yesterday I talked about an event that took place here in Orlando FL at SelfieWRLD. Models and photographers from all over the state gather to network, meet, and of course, create. While I was working through the various scenes and backdrops I heard models say over and over...
"I'm not very pretty." "Can you hide (insert perceived flaw)?" "I don't think I am very good."
Photographers hear these and various related phrases all the time from people they work with, and I am going to tell you something that you should remember the next time you work with a photographer...They will never believe you!
Whatever flaw you see in yourself, there is a VERY good chance that YOU are the ONLY person who sees it. We are our biggest naysayers, but despite all that, a photographer's job is to see beyond your insecurities and worries. What a photographer sees is your truest potential. Your best self. The real you.
It is through this gift that photographers are able to bring out powerful emotions in a single image. They are able to capture what's really there instead of what someone fears are there. Because they can see what others can't and with a photograph, show the world what they see.
When I work with different models I sometimes catch a glimpse of who or what that person is. It honestly depends on the situation and the person as to how this bit of inspiration occurs, but it does happen, and it did happen while working the event at SelfieWRLD.
I was walking through the event and I stumbled upon Shaun. He was working with a few other photographers, but something stopped me and made me take note of him. He had a presence or an aura about him and I wanted to take his photograph.
When it came time for my turn to work with Shaun I asked him a simple question. I asked him to close his eye and think about the man he wanted to be in 5 years. I told him I would count to 3 and when I said 3 I wanted him to open his eyes and make his future self proud. I think he understood the assignment.
As I was editing this image the words of Muhammad Ali came to mind.
I’m a show you how great I am!
If only those in front of our cameras could see what we photographers can. If they could there would be more worldwide belief in one's self, and more people would go out and show themselves just how great they can be!
Thanks for stopping by. I would love to hear what you think about all this. Feel free to leave a comment or reach out on Instagram, Twitter, Patreon, or Vero.
SelfieWRLD Orlando
Last night I had the opportunity to attend a photographer & model meetup at SelfieWRLD Orlando. The event was sponsored by Pexels which I had not heard of until last night.
Now I am going to be honest, while I had been looking forward to this event all week in the moments leading up to the event I was filled with anxiety. Even driving to the event I contemplated turning around 5 or 6 times. But I got dressed up, left the house, and was going to be social god damn it! And I am glad I went. Not only was SelfieWRLD Orlando an amazing place I got to meet some very cool photographers and models!
I am actually surprised more locations and businesses like SelfieWRLD Orlando don't exist, and those that do exist have only started gaining traction in the last 2-3 years, which is weird considering the last 2-3 years. SelfieWRLD Orlando is filled with individual booths, each booth having a different theme. It's actually a great set up and I certainly will be going back for some fun shoots in the future.
Here are a few of my shots from last night. I have so many photos taken that I need to go through and edit, so make sure you are following my Instagram, Patreon, Twitter, and Vero to see all of them.
Also, don't forget that my first newsletter comes out on Monday and we will be talking about 3 ways to take better photos on your phone.
Till next time keep taking great shots!
Mental Health Exercises For Photographers
Yesterday I talked about how photography helped me with my own personal mental health. Today I would like to talk about specific ideas and exercises one might do, as a photographer, to improve their own mental health. Now, before we get started let me be clear, these are just suggestions, not law. The difference between an idea and law is that ideas are moldable. They can be changed, evolved, improved upon, and made better. So I encourage all of you reading to take my ideas and make them your own. I would even love to hear about how you have improved on these ideas on my Patreon, Twitter, Instagram, or Vero. So without further ado here are some mental health exercises for photographers.
Go On A Photo Walk-About
The first time I ever heard the term walk-about was watching the movie, Crocodile Dundee. The main character explained that it was a time to just walk around and think. No real direction or destination. You just kind of go where your feet take you. Going on a photography walk-about is not much different. You just pick a place and walk, camera in hand, and take pictures as you go. Some of my favorite walkabouts were in Cleaveland OH while there on a work trip, a local nature trail here in Orlando, and weirdly enough Disneyland. Some of my best photos ever taken have come from walkabouts, and I always feel a little better afterward both mentally and physically.
Work Through You Emotions With Self Portraits
In 2019 I decided to start taking self-portraits. I did this because I did not have a lot of good photos of myself, and I wanted some, and there were things I wanted to express that I thought I could through self-portrait photography. After I had created my first 5 or 6 self-portraits a friend told me something that I will never forget. She said that while the photos were good they lacked depth, emotion, and vulnerability, and that is what she wanted to see. So I sat down and wrote out some emotions that I have always struggled with. Emotions that I often tried to hide, but occasionally bubbled up to the surface in unhealthy ways, and decide to take a photo of those emotions. The one that really stuck with me was the photos I took of anger. Taking the photo and talking on Instagram about how anger had affected my life in the past brought a great deal of peace and closure to me. It helped me to see things about myself I had not seen before and helped me gain even greater control, in a healthy way, over my emotions.
Learn To See Art In The Ordinary and Mundane
There is this idea that we only see a small percentage of the world around us. We are bombarded by so many things that our brains can only process so much, otherwise, we would get overwhelmed and die. Because of that filter, we have on the world we often overlook or miss small things that carry great beauty. A few months ago I started taking the time to find those small items that we often overlook and turn them into beautiful works of art with nothing more than my camera and a bit of light editing. My favorite image that I have created in this endeavor so far is the one below. My wife had been doing some arts and crafts earlier and had left some colored pencils on our coffee table. I gathered up the pencils and put them inside a shot glass so they would all be held together. Using a chair I took a photo of them from overhead and this image turned into one of my most liked photos on any social media platform I am currently on. Art...made from the most simple object...a pencil.
I hope you enjoyed these mental health exercises for photographers. These are a few ideas I employ to help my mental health and I have found them helpful. What are some ways that you have used photography for your mental health? I'd love to hear! In the meantime make sure you are signed up for my newsletter where I share things that are newsletter exclusive. For example this week I will be sharing 3 great tips to take great photos with your phone!
Till next time - Keep taking great photos.
Can Photography Help Mental Health
Can Photography Help Mental Health
I always thought it a weird joke the universe was playing on me when I think back on the worst day of my life. It was April 1, 2009 (April Fools Day), and I was planning to kill myself.
I have struggled with mental health most of my life. Growing up I never really felt safe. School was honestly a form of cruel and unusual torture as I was plagued by both students and teachers for most of my grade school and middle school career. And while some people had the blessing of being able to go home and find peace I was not graced with that option. Home was a place of violent emotional outbursts, unrealistic expectations, dishonesty, and religious brainwashing. So when I tell you I grew up in survival mode you can at least have a vague understanding.
When someone grows up in survival mode it's extremely difficult for them to be present in the moment. Their brains are operating at 110% all the time analyzing every interaction, motion, word, and phrase. Looking for dangers, and planning out how they will react when the inevitable danger appears. It is an exhausting way to live, and one of the most difficult trauma responses to unlearn.
I carried much of this flight or fight hyper-vigilance into adulthood and I will be honest it ruined a lot of relationships, friendships, and opportunities. So when my world came crashing down around me on April 1, 2009 I thought I was done. I was tired, exhausted, and just didn't see a way out. More importantly, I just didn't want to live like that anymore. So I pulled out my gun, loaded it, and decided to have one last night before the end. I ordered my favorite Chinese food (sesame chicken with fried rice & a coke), cleaned up my apartment (no idea why), and decided to listen to some music. Now at the time, I had a 500-disc CD player, and it was fully loaded with CDs from 500 different artists. I picked up the remote and hit shuffle...what happened next will forever be one of the biggest surprises of my life!
I never reported mine, in fact, I didn't talk about it or tell anyone about it for years. It took me a while to come to grips with what happened. How it happened, and why it happened. Why me?
So there I was, sitting on the couch, eating sesame chicken and sipping on a coke. I had just hit shuffle on my CD player and the VERY FIRST song to come on was a song called Birthday by The Cruxshadows. Now I won't quote the entire song to you, but I will quote the lyrics that hit me like a ton of bricks...
"So look at your life
Who do you want to be before you die?
Look at your life
And what do you want to do?
Look at your life
Who do you want to be before you die?
Look at your life
You haven't got forever"— The Cruxshadows
I heard those lyrics and realized I did not want this to be my last night on earth. I wanted more, and to live a better life. So I unloaded my gun and put it away.
Now I wish I could tell you that the next day I woke up a changed man...I didn't. I wish I could tell you the next day was better...It wasn't...in fact, it was worse. But I knew I wanted to get better, and I had a long journey in front of me. I started going to therapy, reading good books, and making changes in my life. It did not happen all at once. It did not even happen quickly. But eventually, those small changes had a compound effect and my life started to improve.
One of the changes that came into my life a few years later was photography. Social media had introduced me to so many beautiful and stunning images online, and I desperately wanted to create beautiful images myself. I had no idea how, or what I was doing, but photography had sparked something inside me. A fire that was never going to go out. I started taking pictures of anything and everything. Some were good, most were ok, and a few were really bad. But I didn't care. Picking up a camera was a near meditative experience for me.
See when you grow up in survival mode, and eventually, learn to live in survival mode your brain never stops running. It moves at the speed of a supercomputer always looking for danger and popping out ideas of how to deal with that imagined danger. But when I put a camera in my hand my brain stopped looking for dangers. It took a break and for the first time in my entire life, I could be present 100% in the moment. No what ifs. Just me, my camera, and whatever I was shooting.
After living a lifetime in survival mode this reprieve from my brain was/is an experience I have difficulty describing. I remember trying to explain this to my best friend once and saying "Is this how normal people live?! Because if so they have no idea how wonderful their lives are!!"
So can photography help people suffering from mental health? Yes! It has not only given me a haven to help ease my troubled mind but has allowed me the opportunity to express difficult emotions that I could never express before.
I will never understand what happened that night on April 1, 2009. Why out of all those CDs did the machine pick that one CD and that one song? Was it a higher power? If so why me? I will probably never know the answers to those questions, but what I do know is I am grateful I did not pull the trigger that night. I am grateful I eventually discovered photography, and I am grateful I now get to create beautiful images and share them...Just like I wanted to so many years ago.
Learning To Shoot On Film...Again
A few months ago I stopped into my local camera store and asked about buying a film camera. I know it is a trend right now, but I was seeing some beautiful images on Instagram and I wanted to see if I could learn to shoot on film...again. I say again because I actually started taking pictures on film.
In 1995 I was in the 8th grade and we took a field trip to some sort of mine in the Appalachian mountains. Somehow my Father decided to loan me his Canon 35mm camera...That or I "borrowed" it without telling him. The latter is much more likely. I don't remember much about the trip...TBH most of my life's memories are kinda a blurry haze thanks to trauma, but I do remember trying to get some good shots while I was there, and this was one of the images I took.
Fast forward many years later, I have been shooting digital for over 10 years now and I want to try my hand at film again. Now keep in mind film itself has come a long way since 1995, but the manufacturing of film cameras has not. Most manufacturers stopped producing film cameras many years ago, so if you want to shoot film you have to find a vintage camera. This is a good thing, because most of the vintage cameras take excellent pictures, and the lenses that were made back then can seriously hold their own against the lenses of today. Today everything is made out of plastic and has sort of a cheap feel to it vs. the cameras of the past were made with strong quality materials, many of them metal, carry a good heft, and their manufacturing was so good that cameras built 40 years ago can still today take amazing photos!
I decided to purchase a Pentax Super Program 35mm camera. This camera was manufactured and released back in 1983...2 years after I was born, but as you can see from this image it can certainly take amazing images. This image is literally straight out of the camera with ZERO editing. I was out on a walk, saw this dried-up leaf, framed and composed the image, adjusted settings, and click got something worthy of framing.
See that is why learning to shoot on film...again was so important to me. As digital photographers I think too often we rely on our post-editing skills to make a photo look amazing, and many of us have forgotten the first rule of photography...get the photo as close to perfect IN CAMERA before you ever touch a piece of editing software.
Now that being said learning how to shoot film...again is not as easy as it sounds. I recently developed my 2nd role of film and out of 30 exposures only 11 pictures actually came out ok. Why? because I was relying too much on the camera's auto abilities and shooting in shutter priority mode instead of shooting in full manual and using a light meter to help me determine settings. So now I am working on my 3 roll of film and working hard to be more mindful of what and how I am shooting in order to get better shots.
If you would like to see more of my work from this roll of film check out my Patreon where I share more of my photography.
A Killer & The Dead
I have loved films and movies most of my life. Back before the age of streaming collecting movies and watching the DVD extras was a big favorite pastime of mine, and I always dreamed of being involved in films. So you can imagine my delight when I was invited by Austin Janowsky to serve as a BTS photographer on the set of his latest movie A Killer & The Dead.
For anyone who has never looked into how films are made...It is an extensive project requiring the creative talents of so many people. When people talk about giving their blood sweat and tears into a movie they are seldom exaggerating and most likely being literal.
The success of any such project is determined by the commitment and dedication of the entire team, and this past week saw a group of humans come together and work together perfectly. Were there setbacks? Yes. Were they overcome? Also yes.
So stay tuned for more news and details of this upcoming movie A Killer & the Dead.
What Do Photographers Do?
Film photography has been out of mainstream favor for many many years. And despite film making a resurgence most professional photographers will still rely on digital over film. This means a photographer is not limited to the number of shots they can take, and often most digital photographers can rack up an impressive number of shots from a single photoshoot. I myself can range anywhere from 100-1000 shots inside one photo shoot. So what do photographers do with all those photos?
Now I can not speak for everyone, but I will share what I do. I store them. Simple as that.
Why?
Because I might want to come back to them someday. As photographers, we are constantly learning. This hobby and profession always have new cameras coming out, new lenses to explore, and brand new software to experiment with, and with each passing year, we as photographers get better little by little.
With that new skill comes the opportunity for us to revisit old photos and ideas and see if we can improve upon our older work. Let me give you an example...
The photo below was taken 07/21/2020 with Maeve in Tampa FL. Now there is nothing inherently wrong with the photo. The shoot had some issues due to a lighting issue and I was forced to use harsh undiffused lighting that showed off parts of the client's oily skin. In post, I worked to edit in a way to minimize those effects the harsh lighting had, and honestly, I think, for that time period, I did a pretty good job. The client was happy with the photo and shared it everywhere.
Now fast forward two years later. In those two years, I have had a lot of practice when it comes to editing, and I have learned new techniques and skills I did not have before. So, the other day I decided to revisit this shoot and see what I could do...
Same photoshoot. Same lighting conditions, but you can see a BIG difference in the editing. Before I relied too much on Lightroom recommendations for editing and didn't trust my own unique creative skills. Today I rarely use any of Lightroom's automatic recommendations and adjust and edit the model and the lighting in a way that shows off my unique creative vision for a photo.
So the next time a photographer tells you how many full external hard drives they have...Don't give them a hard time. There might be a literal work of art in there, patiently waiting for the artist to learn a few new skills.